Recurrent Miscarriage: 10 Things I Wish I Had Known Before My 5 Miscarriages

My path to build a family was not what I expected. It has included a total of 5 miscarriages, an adoption, and a failed IVF cycle.  And on top of that, I am thrilled to be currently 34 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby boy.  There is so much I wish I could go back and tell myself years ago when I started my journey to build a family! 

My struggles with recurrent miscarriage have taught me so much and here are 10 things I wish I could tell myself as I was just starting out on this journey. 

1)      Allow Time to Grieve

I have often felt like I was running out of time when it comes to fertility, but one lesson I have learned is that skipping over the grieving phase after a miscarriage is simply not an option.  In order to move forward and make decisions, it has been important to allow myself time and space to first grieve. Otherwise, I am not ready to make a decision or might rush into a decision.  

2)      My Husband Grieves Differently

This one took me a few miscarriages in to truly understand. First, I myself grieved differently with each miscarriage, each one was unique and had it’s on set of circumstances, disappointments and struggles.  And then on top of that, my husband and I have completely different ways of expressing and going through grief.  At times, it felt like he wasn’t grieving. I didn’t see in him the tears and overt expression of emotions that I was displaying. It was through couples therapy that I came to understand and even appreciate our different ways of experiencing and expressing grief. 

3)      Pinpointing a Cause is Unlikely (but still worth exploring)

Knowing the exact cause of a miscarriage is not always possible and in most cases knowing the cause with certainty is impossible. This can be hard to accept. Over the years, my mind has tried to rationalize and find certainty, even when it is not possible. Ultimately, I’ve learned to accept that there is an aspect of the unknown in most miscarriages and to be ok with that.  

4)      Request More Testing

While knowing a cause with 100% certainty may be impossible, I found asking why and doing the research and testing worthwhile. Over the years, we uncovered potential factors that may have contributed to my miscarriages. One of these was a blood clotting issue I have, called Antiphospholipid Syndrome (APS). APS has a very specific protocol that I have followed to help ensure a healthy pregnancy.  We also found out my husband has fragmented DNA on his sperm.  Being able to help control for these two factors in future pregnancies is part of what I believe led to a healthy, full term pregnancy.  This is why I recommend advocating for yourself, pushing for more testing when you feel it is warranted and including your husband or partner in that testing.  

5)      Do what feels right for you! 

There is SO much you can do to help with your fertility. For me, I tired a lot of different things and stuck with the pieces that I felt were helpful at the time. A lot of times i found that finding the right person to help me was just as important, if not more, than the modality I selected.  A few things to consider- 

-   acupuncture

-   meditation 

-   diet modifications

-   Mayan abdominal massage

-   therapy and/or couples therapy

-   yoga

-   chiropractic work

My main caution with this piece is to not try and do it all, find the thing (or a few things) that feel right for you.  Go with your gut on this one.  

6)      Find your people  (you are NOT alone!)

I always felt very alone in what I was experiencing, but I’ve now come to learn that there are plenty of women out there with very similar struggles. I found it useful to connect with others either through in person groups as well as online.  I have a group specific for those going through miscarriage, linked here. I would encourage you to go and and find your people, too. A great place to start is Facebook.  Depending on your location, you may find there are also a lot of great local, in-person support groups. 

7)      Furry Friends Help! 

For me, this was my cats! If you do not have pets, I would highly recommend looking into and finding the right fit for you. My cats provide me with so much love and comfort, especially when I am having a tough time. 

8)       Struggle Creates Gratitude

For me, the newborn phase with my son was a breeze. I think there is something to years of struggle to make you appreciate a baby on a whole new level. I have enjoyed motherhood and because of what it took to get here, I feel I appreciate the small things just that much more than I would otherwise. I am also able to deal with the difficult times and let small things slide because gratitude is at the root of my experience.  

9) There is More than One Way Forward

This one is so key and for me is one of the reasons behind me creating Miscarriage Hope Desk. In the moment, I often felt like my options were limited and bleak, but I was able to step back during key parts of my journey and realize that I always had a choice and multiple options.  With this perspective, I was able to select an option that felt right to me and my husband and not feel forced into anything. 

10) The Ending

What I really wish I’d known before I set out on my journey to build my family was the ending. If I knew just how beautiful it would be in the end, i would have known from the beginning it was all worthwhile. 

Fertility Yoga & Acupuncture: A Winning Combo

Shared Origins

Yoga and acupuncture both have deep roots, originating in Asia and dating back thousands of years. Acupuncture is based in Traditional Chinese Medicine, while the foundation of yoga is Ayurvedic Medicine. These two forms of energy medicine have evolved and cross pollinated over the centuries, especially as they’ve moved from East to West. Both yoga and acupuncture focus on healing and maintaining optimal health by removing energy blockages, releasing excess energy and generally supporting good energy flow. Known as qi in TCM, practitioners use various tools such as needles and massage to help move energy along meridian lines in the body. In yoga, the life force or energy is known as prana. Movement, breathing and meditation are used to move energy and create balance in the body.

I have personally witnessed the power of these two forms of energy medicine coming together in supporting women who are trying to conceive. I have 20+ years of experience in the healing arts and for over a decade II have worked with women in a fertility clinic setting. I had the privilege of being involved in the creation of an Integrative Fertility Clinic where I saw firsthand that the women who were supported by both acupuncture and yoga experienced greater success on their fertility journey. The two practices complimented one another perfectly, leaving women feeling nourished and deeply relaxed. 

Benefits of Yoga for Fertility

It has been well established that yoga is good for fertility not only physiologically, but also mentally, emotionally, socially, and spiritually. It is a gentle form of movement that is doctor recommended and appropriate as preparation for and support through fertility treatment (and beyond, into pregnancy). Extreme forms of exercise can sometimes harm fertility potential by directing blood flow away from reproductive organs and spiking cortisol levels.  Yoga for fertility directs blood flow towards reproductive organs to create a nurturing internal environment for those eggs and embryos. Increased blood flow helps to reduce inflammation, boost immunity, and balance hormones. The cycle-specific yoga videos in the Fertile Hope Yoga library ensure that women who are practicing are confident, knowing that the poses will support them exactly where they’re at. Whether menstruating, stimming, going through an IUI, IVF or FET, during a two week wait, or while on a break, there’s a specially designed practice for each stage of the journey.

Similar to acupuncture, yoga is also an excellent stress reliever. We all know that stress is not fertility friendly and yet struggling to conceive or going through fertility treatment is inevitably stressful. The breathing and mindfulness techniques that are part of yoga help to ground you in the present moment and bring you back to your calm center. Yoga has been proven to reduce anxiety and depression, which can also boost fertility. 

Fertility Yoga for All

After establishing an in-person yoga program through the Integrative Fertility Clinic - which saw a 90% success rate in achieving pregnancy among participants of the program - I decided that I wanted to reach even more women and launched Fertile Hope Yoga in 2019. FHY is an entirely online yoga studio which allows anyone from anywhere to access beginner-friendly, cycle-specific yoga for fertility anytime! Because of its accessibility, doctors recommend my program to their patients especially where other forms of support such as acupuncture might not be available and during clinic shutdowns during the pandemic. Something that I say often to my students is that even when so much of the fertility journey is out of your control, focus on what you can do for your fertility such as yoga. 

FHY is so much more than just yoga; it is also a strong community that supports and encourages each other every step of the way. Together we work on releasing fear, building confidence and cultivating a positive mindset. I am proud to lead a global community of women who are each walking their unique fertility journey but who come together through their shared dream of becoming mothers. 

There is no such thing as too much support on the fertility journey. The challenges and heartbreak are real, but so is the hope that keeps you putting one foot in front of the other. Whether it is the support of acupuncture, yoga or both, know that your amazing body is capable of so much healing and growth, and you do not have to walk this journey alone.

For more information about Fertile Hope Yoga, and to get a free nurture yoga for fertility course, visit www.fertilehopeyoga.com. 

Erin McCollough

Founder, Fertile Hope Yoga

Dairy & Fertility: Getting to the Bottom of it

As a fertility acupuncturist, I constantly find myself researching and learning information regarding fertility. Luckily, even though there are varying opinions out there, in the natural medicine world of fertility there aren’t too many extreme conflicts of information - at least not in my experience. In regards to fertility, I knew it would be really important for me to be able to guide my patients on diet which is one thing that is more in their control than anything. So I wanted to address the one topic that continuously causes confusion for my patients, and that is dairy. Specifically milk products.

In Chinese medicine, dairy can cause phlegm which is why we suggest to keep it to a minimum. Dairy has also been an issue for certain people who cannot digest it properly. Yoghurt seems to be a lot more compatible with our digestion because it has healthy bacteria which is healthy for the gut.

In a book called The Fertility Diet, the authors share information that was retrieved from the most comprehensive study to date from the long-standing Nurses’ Health Study on how a certain foods can affect fertility. In this book they say that skim or reduced fat dairy can have adverse effects on fertility. On the other hand, full fat yoghurt or milk has shown to increase chances of conception. My understanding for the reason there are so many conflicting reports on this is that some milk products add hormones which are known to disrupt the endocrine system therefore causing fertility challenges. It can also be that people who have noted adverse responses due to reduced fat dairy, which has been shown to reduce the rates of fertility, associated it with dairy as a whole.

So according to these studies, if you are to have dairy make sure it’s whole and full fat. Fat is actually an important part of our diets and it is found to be a lot more beneficial than we have thought for the past several decades. Healthy fats are also listed as the foods necessary for improved conception in the The Fertility Diet.

As an Oriental Medicine practitioner, I look at the person’s individual constitution. If they have phlegm damp symptoms I would not recommend dairy. And if the person doesn’t have any symptoms of phlegm damp, is not lactose intolerant or sensitive to dairy, I would suggest full fat organic yoghurt once a day if they are looking to get pregnant. This will give their bodies a needed serving of fat which is shown to increase fertility. I would also suggest to drop sugar which is another ingredient that is associated with poor fertility outcomes.

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